Today is the 2nd week of AL right from the first day i started work.. this time did not go overseas, although actually was planning to.. Having AL suppose to be fun and relaxed.. but i'm like feeling, sad and depressed.. why does he have to fly? If i can choose i would rather have him around more and earn abit lesser then to have him flying around so often.. Although its mostly on the weekdays, but still.. haiz.. What i've been afraid of is starting to happen.. I dun wanna feel this way, but i cant..
2nd sem of my school had started and i am given like 3 assignments.. so glad that the questions of 2 are similar to my senior's.. I can proudly said i had started abit bit on one of it.. Apart from this is my sis wedding.. WTF i'm only around there to help her.. she prepared dresses for her sisters and everything.. dun even care a least bit about me.. if it is like that then i shd not give a damn right? such a irresponsible person.. not happy can juz happily hurt her partner.. happy den act as if nothing happen and throw all responsibility to the partner.. only noe how to go out and play.. how old already still play..
Not having a good day even though i'm all alone in my room.. not even in the mood to shop with my mum juz now.. I DUN WAN HIM TO FLY!! but i cant say anything.... there never has been my opinion even from the start....
Hihi, i'm back again.. night shift it is.. 2 months just passed by.. but there's millions of things happened.. right after phuket trip i had to start studying for my mid term paper.. then assignment.. which then lead to my current status in skl, mugging for end term paper. so stressed!! faster finish faster finish.. let me enjoy even one week i also dun mind.. =(
He went to Bangkok all alone! without me, without friends, without anybody! =( So wad if i understand? still cant take it.. Wads worse is that in the middle of the week on thu night 9pm.. he is in bangkok, my parents are not at home, my sis also not at home.. at that moment is call lonely depression! lol.. but anyways i have to study and CUb is super shagged..
Applied house for the 2nd time now.. although i prefer the previous one which was the punggol one, i still hope i can get it this round, at tampines.. pls let me get it.. let me get greenleaf.. =) anyway i hope he will always pei me.. maybe i'm abit too sticky.. but still i wan to.. and i cant stand it.. =(
I missed the chance of going to the beach, yet again!! =(( Duper sian-ness.. and its all due to help only!! and yup i am working now.. Sooo sad.. weekend like its not.. is money that appealing? Although i enjoyed my job, i cant accept the fact that i have to do it out of kindness to miss my beach trip! =(
Alright stop complaining already.. I juz came back from my not-so-wonderful trip to phuket. Its nice there, but i think that it is juz too commercialise.. The food there cost as much as sg.. there is nothing to shop there, so sorry guys i did not buy anything for u all.. =p shd have ask him to book somewhere with swimming pool.. haha oh we not-so-secretly went into a hotel to swim.. haha.. i still had much fun though.. cuz its with him! =)
So happy that my mum will accompany me for lunch later.. not like some guy due to tiredness and dun wanna pei me! btw.. i went to food fair on fri and i bought my long-lost slurping grass jelly! so excited! but i cant drink it now and for some few days.. =(( actually he was tired and i already wanted to go home.. but he suggested going to suntec for dinner at his liking place.. den i rmbed that there is a food fair.. see him so happy when he see soo much food.. LOL!
today say until here ba.. nothing much le.. hope i get my leaves! =)
At this time of the day, everyone shd be slping.. Good (early) morning everybody.. i'm here to blog because i realise i love him too much.. LOL! NOT bcuz he let me go out with guys! Actually this always happen after my pms.. after days of scolding, sadness, bit of crying, i will suddenly super love him.. den 3 weeks later, tada! the angsty-ness is back! i am such a stupid spoilt girl.. but nevertheless, i can coax him.. not like my sis..
Its been exactly 3 and a 1/2 years today.. not long, but not short either.. have nv been into one that long.. and am loving it.. so glad that i'm attached before starting to work, can prevent sooo much of gossips, miscom and sadness.. After hearing so many sides of a story from the relevant colleagues, i conclude that love is a super complicated matter, plus involving complicated species it gets worse. Can just keep simple ma, like what he say, want jiu want, dun wan jiu dun wan.. =p
Stepping into the 2nd month of a new year, things are getting abit more clearer around.. Discussing about flats, savings, colleagues clearing doubts among themselves.. Anyway, i cant wait for march to be here.. PHUKET!! =) Just hope that my sis would just... talk to me.. simple task..
Thats me for today.. Nothing much le.. Happy 42nd Month Anniversary Tan JunWen!! I Love You!!! =DDD
